Jan. 9, 2019

Goodbye, so long, farewell…

“Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” Matthew 6:26

Everyone has issues. Everyone has problems. Most of us have many blessings to count as well as a few tears to shed. Life consists of ups and downs. There are happy times and sad times. Feeling sorry for oneself is never productive. Reflecting as a way to learn life’s lessons? Now, that’s productive!

Towards the end of 2018, I felt a wide variety of feelings. I believe I am professionally happier than I’ve been in decades. I love what I do, and I enjoy those I serve. No complaints in the professional arena.

Personally, I remain happy in my marriage and extremely proud of my family. We’ve been through a lot over the course of twenty years. Deployments, our sons’ moves, deaths, accidents, illnesses, etc. We are not immune from the curve balls that this life likes to throw. Losing both of my sisters over the course of these twenty years hit me hard in 2018. The loss was powerful. I think losing the first sister was hard, but I still had my big sister. Losing the second sister has been, well, tragic. This year presented circumstances that made it glaringly obvious they were gone. I no longer have a sister to talk to and confide in.

My year wasn’t horrible. However, like you, I did experience some negative sides of life. I believe getting a puppy helped. Beaux has been the balm for my wounded spirit. When we feel forgotten or irrelevant, there’s nothing like a puppy to remind us of how deeply we are loved and how important we are to them.

Despite the endings experienced in 2018, I feel tremendously encouraged by a new beginning. A new year always allows a fresh start. So, what lesson did I learn from a year of letting go? God remains. In 2018, more than ever, God revealed to me that others may treat us as if we are invisible, but He will never lose sight of us. His eye is on the sparrow, so it certainly remains on me.

“I sing because I’m happy,

I sing because I’m free,

For His eye is on the sparrow,

And I know He watches me.”