I love people. I actually love all people. I have a tendency to over-love people to the point of enabling them. I am getting better at holding people accountable, but I still struggle with it. I have a history of allowing people to escape reality within my love. I have a history of loving so unconditionally that people often feel no remorse for poor choices or bad behavior.
I’ve hurt other people in my over-loving habits. Some people hurt me deeply by taking my love for granted. It’s as if they expect me to always be there. They seem to feel terribly betrayed when they turn around and I’m gone. I’ve grown really good at disappearing lately.
I suspect it is because I am older, wiser, and realize I have limited time to do as much good as possible. Does that sound arrogant? I am sorry. I don’t mean to be arrogant. I know the Truth. The Truth has set me free. I encourage you to find freedom, too. Even if you are free without me.
My intent has never been to purposely over love anyone or to wound them when I walk away. Walking away is actually very biblical. Walking away falls within the “red letter” category – words that came straight from the mouth of Jesus. A friend recently wrote on Facebook, “I am trying really hard to steer clear of drama. Perhaps that is selfish?”
If steering clear of excessive drama indicates selfishness, feel free to count me in as the most selfish of all. Jesus calls us and sends us on a mission. He asks us to spread His word to others. He encourages us to travel light, free from cumbersome baggage. He commands us to be a blessing and to share His love. If we are ignored, belittled, betrayed, rejected or unsuccessful, what does He say to do?
“If anyone will not welcome you or listen to your words, leave that home or town and shake the dust off your feet.” Yep…said by Jesus.
When the dust flies, keep Him by your side and just keep walking. To do so is a GOoD thing.